Do you ever get that feeling that you are just tired? Not sleepy tired. Just tired. The best way I can describe it is that you get tired of fighting. Tired of struggling. Tired of... everything. Not saying you want to "end it all" because let's be honest... that's a bit extreme. It's that feeling where you feel like you have been fighting for something for so long or trying so hard to be "perfect" and it's just not working. Obviously perfection is impossible to achieve. There is always room for improvement, which is what makes people get better... when they are constantly trying to beat themselves.
I think there are times in life where you just reach a point and you can't try anymore. Not about everything in general. Just certain things. Let's take an example. Say you have been trying so hard to be a really good friend to someone and they keep pushing back. Making you feel like you aren't doing enough or that you aren't enough. After so long you either start to believe it or you just can't fight it anymore. You have no choice but to back off.
I believe that relationships come and go. Not everyone is going to be in your life forever. Not even family. Relationships fall apart so that other ones can come together. Yes... I just posted that quote. But it's so true. Not everything is sunflowers, rainbows, and unicorns. Life sucks. It's going to hurt. People are going to hurt you. Your heart will be broken. You will get betrayed. It's part of life. I tweeted a quote the other day that said something along the lines of 'Pain is inevitable, but suffering is a choice'.
That's not saying you have to just suck it up and deal with it. No tears. No reaction. Sometimes tears are good. It's simply saying that you don't have to let it consume you. I am no stranger to this. There will be relationships in life that end and you feel like the world is over. It's not. There is a reason that relationship never worked out. There are people in my life who use to be really close with me and now we don't speak. Not a day goes by something doesn't remind me of them. But it is what it is. Don't dwell on it. Move on. Embrace what they taught you.
Now if it make you feel better, I will say that I am a believer in the notion that sometimes people don't know what they lost until it is gone. They don't realize how great you are. Or what you have to offer. Everyone has seen that, right? Whether it be an ex that breaks up with you and then suddenly they are all up in your business wanting you back or a friend that is apologizing profusely for talking behind your back. Why? They realized they screwed up and they threw away greatness. Just like there is that person who you let get away... you are that person to somebody. Somebody knows, or will know, how amazing you are after the fact. That may seem sad to a lot of you, myself included, because you want them to see that BEFORE they throw it away. But you are great. You are beautiful. Someone will appreciate it.
You for instance... the one reading this. You are great. I know that. So smile. Just smile.